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What is in store for me in 2009?

Scary, isn’t it? Especially with the way the economy is. I think I have resisted blogging lately because there a lot of things I am not happy about. Especially with my career. Blogging about it only makes them too real and I wasn’t sure I would be able to handle it. Also, what are the options that I really do have with the economy the way it is? Lately, (well actually for the past few years) my workplace has begun to feel like the good ol’ boys’ club. I never seem to get opportunity to work on interesting projects. It’s so humiliating almost to say it, but I feel like they don’t value me for the potential I have. I work in a small group where my superiors are mostly men. I work in a technical field and I feel constantly in the shadow of people who are probably more knowlegeble than me. It doesn’t help that I haven’t had the opportunity to break out of this shadow. I am frustrated and feel like I am not reaching my potential. However I have stuck to it since I am in grad school and company is helping me pay for school. Now I am in my last semester and they have started to pull the bs on how much they are going to pay. Thank god it’s my last semester. So what after it? I need to build my confidence so that I can go out after my graduation and find a better job. Will I be able to live up to the expectation? Will I really be able to do things on my own and not be in the shadow anymore? Those are all scary thoughts, but something I must deal with. NOW.


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